Human Messenger

 Hello.

I hope this post find you well. Two weeks ago, I thought moving in to my renovated room will give me more time to relax and focus more on my art and the little world I’m building but.. turns out I was mistaken. 

I’m so happy to be moving into a ‘new’ room that is closer to my dream room by design BUT I completely overlook: moving back my stuff, buying/ revamping old furnitures.. not to mention the workers unknowingly spilled some water from the Serap Air (water absorber/ dehumidifier) that I was using and it ruined my books.. some of them were my beloved the clique series and some translated fantasy books that is no longer being sold. The texts were okay but the pages?? Forever damaged.. it’s been 10+ days too and the pages hasnt dried out.

And that was not all. So I do live in the family house and navigating between generations is not easy. Most of the elderly here are avoidant but love to complain and lash out not to mention at least 2 of them has narcissistic tendencies. Despite my room being ‘done’ I was kinda being the human messenger between these people and the contractor for a little while before I eventually got sick and tired of it and just recently I began asserting my own boundaries and stop relaying messages. 

The contractor being soooo stubborn with his aesthetic also add to the stress. At the end of the day it was not him who live in the house so I wish he would listen more to what the house residents are saying because these past months it’s been multiple cases of ‘wrong tiles, incomplete progress but already moving on to other room AND back, wrong concept, plants were wrongly removed’ all because he does NOT listen. (Me and my sister already know that he loves to tweak things to his own taste or liking even though technically he does get the job done, but our mother wants things to be done ASAP and so the whole renovation happened)

On top of all of this, one of the house cat, Not Rena passed away because she inhaled some cement dust particles and she was vulnerable as she just recovered from a cancer removal surgery. Plus 2 other cats got sick, Joni got a fever and is already recovered, and Juna got bronchitis due to cement dust (currently being monitored for recovery). Juna has to recover and thank goodness we caught it on time :(

Anyways life has been so mentally stressful its like running a marathon but mental. 

BUT my hamster, Miranda taught me that life goes on (just her dgaf and kept running on her wheel) so I try to NOT have all of this affect me much and my craft. I did ask for a hiatus from mod work though but I resume commission work because it helps take my mind off of my personal life.

That’s it.. on a positive note.. I got a new hammy, a campbell panda (molted), because I moved Miranda to a larger cage, 100x50x50 Bucatstate and my 150L container cage is empty PLUS I have always wanted a campbell panda. The little hammy arrived on June 6, and we kept calling it Borneo but when we checked it’s a she we were shocked, she didnt have a name for 24 hours.. we ended up calling her Bora Borneo, or Bourbon for short and she’s suchh an adorable curious hammy with an attitude.

Bourbon, annoyed that I moved her from her temp. cage

Today I tried to get shit done because I want my ‘personal project’ to no longer be personal and they are not gonna work on their own. Thank you for reading and I hope to see you on next post!! 

Xoxo

Jasmine