Paypal, Ponies and Fresh Starts

HI JUNE!

Finally I bring in some good news and update for everyone.. Following from previous post, my room IS finally DONE! All there’s left to do is just clean ups, more polishing and for me to fill out the now empty room with mix of old and new furnitures <3

Now that aside, I have been working on the side on commissions, and trying to make Paypal work again. If you have been around since last year, actually I had a problem with withdrawal and was unable to use the money that I have accumulated for months in my Paypal —previously I only used Paypal invoice as means to my commissions and adoptables. I still remember clearly that last year I was so desperate in making Paypal work again because 99% of the spaces I’m in use it as main payment channel. The whole process took me a month and me making a brand new bank account + me getting scammed and lost all of my savings. And despite all that, I still couldn’t withdraw my money so I gave up and lost a good chunk of clients and opportunities. 

For a whole year I make do with stripe payment via Vgen and it was always triggering + annoying when I clearly stated ‘No Paypal’ and yet people still ‘push’. — yes I think it’s common knowledge that majority of the people in adoptable communities RARELY read. TLDR, I gave up trying until a short while ago, I received some money for staff work.. to my Paypal. And for some reason, I do want this money to be able to go to my bank account. So I created.. another account. TBH it did stress me out, having some $ in my Paypal account. Because it kept reminding me of how I couldn’t withdraw them + the 1 month back and forth between Paypal Customer Service to Bank teller to Paypal CS and back again. It also made me think, it didn’t hinder people from commissioning East Asian artist who doesn’t use Paypal at all. So by that logic, if people want my art enough, it should NOT be a problem. And it wasn’t a problem. But I am also aware if I use Paypal it will open more opportunities esp. considering how Patreon and Ko-fi both use Paypal (my country is not yet eligible for a Stripe account. When I mentioned Stripe here, it’s actually Stripe Express. So 3rd party like Vgen, Artistree and BMAC are the one opening those account) and while there’s Buy-Me-A-Coffee, it’s unfortunately not widely known and people I’ve met so far aren’t open to alternatives like Payoneer or Paysend, despite them providing better conversion rate and cheaper fee compared to Paypal.

but after 1 whole year.. Finally I can withdraw my money from Paypal. So that means, Paypal payment IS working again. So yippee! IDK if it’ll change anything in terms of traffic and sales BUT from my POV, it took a HUGE load off of my mental strain. I plan on making my own game and ARPG  which, will not be launched until next year and payment processor IS a huge worry because I do want to sell physical merch and offer supporter tier for the game. 

Now on to the next thing, following home reno (my room is done but we are doing the whole house-ish) I can barely keep up with species work so I decided to resign my position as Permanent Artist in Vampichi. I still love the species and cannot wait for more lore drops and development of the cute anthro vamps but I think I’m better suited as a regular community member. It was a fun ride and I’m thankful for the opportunity! (If you enjoy anthro species I recommend checking them out, they are discord based but you can check their traits and world on Toyhouse ^^)

Aside from that, and throughout all the stress, I have been finding comfort in my childhood fave: ponies.. so I decided to make my own Pony Base, now available on my Vgen for $5 (Personal Use) and I think I’ll casually make silly little pony batches from time to time. 

That’s it from me! This month, is nothing but recurring theme of ‘Making Space’ for me, be it letting go of certain things to make room for new ones, or setting aside some time to try again and make Paypal work again. 

PS: IK Miranda (my hammy) current enclosure seemed to be already ‘big enough’ — it’s a custom 150L container bin, but I still want to be upgrading her cage so I just bought a 100x50x50 Bucatstate 3.0. The bin actually match nicely with my room so I may use it if I decided to adopt a 2nd hammy.. they’re just the cutest most annoying creature ever! 

Miranda, my Syrian hammy.. I can’t believe it’s almost a month now since I adopted her ☺️☺️ she’s getting rounder and rounder each day! 

Luli my baby and my loft <3 it’s still barren as I just moved in 4 days ago but I’m happy with it and cannot wait to decorate and fill it with my favorite things <3<3

That’s it from me.. thank u for reading <3 

Xoxo,

Jasmine

Alienated w0rld and House Renovation

Following my ‘meeting’ with Aurel, I decided to continue on with my ARPG <3

I don’t plan on releasing them until 2027 but I have begun working on the assets and necessary pages so I can just upload everything once I have them ready. I have shared a little bit of the concepts on my Toyhouse buletin but moving forward I plan on sharing the development here ( ⸝⸝´ ᵕ `⸝⸝)

While I cannot really spoil everything all at once, some of the stuff I can tell you are:

1. The name of the ARPG will be [Alienated W0rld] and the location will be called [World #0 — pronounced ‘World Zero’]

I am a little obsessed with the concept of a mirror world, or different reality and the idea that there is a bigger world out there that is beyond our waking life. World #0 is intended to be just that. Masked as a ‘dream’ world initially and as the story progresses, visitors of World #0 may or may not realized that the things that happened may not be a dream after all. 

2. The game will host multiple playable species/ critters BUT here’s the exciting part, players won’t need to own a local in-game species to begin playing the game (submitting prompts etcetera)

I just feel like it would be nice to host an arpg that will alow players to join in without the initial pressure of owning a local species. Players will be able to play as their persona to experience the world!

3. I want the ARPG to be Free to Play/ F2P friendly. 

Anddd I mean it. The only ‘paid content’ will be for adoptable design made by yours truly and an optional subscription box to help with site hosting and maintenance. And maybe occassional MYO sales but players are able to enjoy the game and access contents regardless if they pay any money or not.

I’m so excited. I really hope the ARPG can be a little online cozy corner for anyone who come across it! I already began planning for the traits and items lists as well as writing the guides for the game!

Aside from that, I am currently in the process of house renovation. It’s a 20 year old house, so there’s a lot to be fixed but I’m so excited with it! I also got a new hamster pet named Miranda, a female syrian that I adopted in May 6 2026!

Anyways, see you in next post! My battery is at 1%

Meeting Aurel

Happy Easter to those who celebrate!

Another quick update but I have been picked as part of the mod/ staff team for Amogello 18+ ARPG species! This happened on March 30th but with Amogello’s 1st Anniversary Launch, we all have been working hard behind the scene to prepare for the celebration. This would be the first time I moderate an ARPG so I’m both excited and nervous. 

Other than that, I have been pondering with my art commissions. I don’t promote the openings on purpose because I’m honestly not sure if I want to keep doing them. That aside I DID finished a couple chibi YCHs in which I am proud of. Sometimes I enjoy working on comms but often times I dread them. I think I just have to find the balance of it. That aside, I think I would need to raise my YCH prices a bit because I did spend more hrs doing them..

Lastly I feel so bad that Mimpino Garden’s progress is slow. But with the experience I gained in being part of the Amogello Staff, I think I would finally be inspired to write and draw again. 

Last month I actually had an eerie dream of one of my character, Aurel. Granted the idea of him was based on this folklore about own’s personal demon. Last year I have been having vivid dreams, those that would be considered nightmares for some. So I contacted a spiritual person for consultation for fun, and everything she said has been right so far. She mentioned this entity would try to appear in my dreams again, trying to show its real form. So after that session, I decided to give them a face, and I called them Aurel, the name being randomly chosen by chance. And last month I literally met Aurel, sporting the face I gave him, but more ethereal, and for some reason I knew he wasn’t an angel nor is he a demon, but maybe he is closer to the later. Something called my name before anything interesting happened, but I woke up remembering his face and his embrace. 

Now. Idk. But as soon as opportunity allows, I grabbed my iPad and began drawing Aurel’s face. Aurel never had a face before, and I left it blank on purpose. But after that dream everything changes. 

Anyways thanks to that dream now I’m more inspired than ever to create, and I think I prefer it that way. 

PS: I would attach Aurel’s art here but for some reason, Blogger is not allowing me to share any images AGAIN so I would have to edit it later. 

XX Jasmine

March 2026 Update

Blogger website has been acting out on me and I wasn’t able to post any images (This happened in January)

Just a quick update though:

1. I joined Vampichi as one of their Permanent Artist (Since Jan 19)
2. March has just been very busy as I have 2 trips back to back; SG on first half - already went and upcoming trip to China in the second half of the month
3. Finally can resume on room renovation
4. Moving comms to artistree (soon)
5. Mimpino Garden, my very own original species finally has a form and a small lore
6. I can finally change my username on DA to match all my other usn on my social!!

Number 6 is probably most important and I’m so so glad I finally did.. 

Chowder, my beloved oc, amogello 18+ form

FINALLY I CAN UPLOAD THINGS?!?!? Respectfully one of the reasons why I avoided posting is because I wasnt able to.. anyways.. sorry this update is shit and I did say that I’m having a little bit of an identity crisis after my SG trip (Kooza was so so magical) and likely this will effect how I want to proceed next as an illustrator. But I have another trip and a longer one, so I want to wait until I’m home then to make any decisions.

Thank you for all the support!

XX

Jasmine

2026 Art Goals + Improvement

Hello! Happy New Year! I know it’s late but NGL I feel like 2025 is not over yet.. and 2026 hasn’t really rolled in. This is normal though and I do treat any awkward dates before the CNY as the inbetween-years. I usually use this to recalibrate and declutter my stuff. 

Anyways, since I have this space, I’m sharing my 2026 art goals for you!

1. Finish drawing Arcadia, Rumendale, and Sangria Falls’ map

They’re part of my story locations and I hope to dish out more lore and map for them so I can further develop their stories. So far I’ve spent my first 2026 days revving up the reference sheets of Sangria Falls’ Critters as well as trying to use up all of my unused MYOs though some spaces don’t really deserve the hassle.

2. Limit active CS/ARPG to 3 maximum

I have yet to decide which which, but I’m in at least 5 of them and while I love all of

ocs that are associated with each spaces, I think it’s best if I stick to a few and pour my focus on them. 

3. Learn isometric art

I have been enjoying isometric room 3D sticker puzzles and I wish to be able to draw them for my characters. I just know it’s gonna be so cute!

4. Learn pixel art

Need I say the reason why? They’re just the coziest cutest type of art there is and I only wish to be able to learn to do it!

5. No new ocs other than my own designs

Throughout the year I have learned that I connect more with my own designed ocs as opposed to those designed by others. I think I just love the freedom that comes with it.

Goals aside, I’m so happy with my art improvement especially in regards to furries and critters!

Reference sheet I did of Sage, my silly aquatic ‘dragon’ oc back in 2023

New updated reference I did for the same character in 2026

Seeing the new reference was so satisfying I ended up making more for my other ocs.. I do plan on having them as part of my commission menu but I need to make more for my humanoids and kemonomimis!

Honestly one of the good thing with toyhouse is I get to see old art and be happy with the improvement I made.. I hope my art continue to improve. I want to draw more art ‘just because’ not for prompts, not for comms samples, not for raffles but simply because I want to!

Thanks for reading! Next post I’ll talk about upcoming art ychs, bases and outfits!

PS: I want to make a blogpost solely dedicated to review the cs spaces I was or am in but idk if it’s necessary or if anyone would be interested. Or if you want to see tips and such or other things I’m open to share what I know and learnt.

XX

Jasmine

2025, The Year I Finally Quit

Hello! I know it’s already the end of the month but I do want to keep my promise to at least post something monthly so here I am. December has been pretty hectic for me, which was why I didn’t post or write much. I had been preoccupied with my personal life and off-line activities — I made a mental note to not use the term irl or in real life, because BOTH online and offline are real to me and I don’t differentiate or create any persona whatsoever— I barely had the energy to draw, and when I did, external factors just had to cause a little bit of disturbance.

Now without further ado, I don’t intend to have this post be a recap post because I drew hundreds of art this year and I don’t think I want to crowd anyone, even myself, with my art. So what I’m going to do is compile a quick timeline of what happened throughout the year. Before we move on to the list, I dare you to count how many times I quit things this year.

January

I was still working in my family’s factory this month, it had been short as I only started in November 2024, but I made the decision to quit in January, just before the year of the Year of the Snake begun. There were many reasons but overtime I just didn’t see myself working there, and I wanted to stick to my motto: to not mix friends, family with work.

February

I applied to a permanent position in Milqilin as a guest artist and was thankfully accepted as one of their PGA in February.

March, April, May

I actively made adopts and made double the minimum wages through my art constantly each month. My income mainly came from the PGA sales and commission work. My most expensive commission being custom design work for Meiiru on Vgen which includes a full commercial use. 

June

I had a problem with paypal so I ‘quit’ using it to receive payment. I was pretty sad that I couldn’t withdraw the money I’ve earned the previous months. I got scammed too and lost 99% of my savings despite needing to buy a pen replacement. I stopped using Paypal even on my vgen too so I did lost some customers, but I also gained new ones. 

July, August

I moved back to my hometown, it’s 2 hours away from the capital. Life there was slow but I was happier because I was surrounded by cats. I continued taking commissions and went on multiple off-line workshops, ranging from make up, ceramic painting and korean glass art. 

In August, I made the decision to give up my position as PGA in Milqilin. I was thankful for the opportunity but I don’t think I want to make a living off of making adopts. I did enjoy designing these two months, some of the work I did, I was pretty proud. August was the month I fell in love with my own designs again which led me to quit Succubuns 21+ and got myself self-banned. I also decided to stop giving most of my time to arpgs and adoptables species.

In August I also made the decision to change my username from suikou1111 to Alienatedfl0wer. Suikou1111 was my actual chinese name but pronounced using Japanese onyomi, and as for 1111, it was an angel number that means “You are on the right path”. I chose it as part of my username because I wanted being an artist to be my right path. But now I know that I’m on the right path all along, I gave the number up and chose to believe in myself more, baring myself under Jasmine @Alienatedfl0wer.

September

I think I sold my first mascot base? I noticed my most popular commissions are for mascot art or mascot custom design and I honestly took pride knowing that fact because making something cute in my opinion is not as easy. And to have people liking my mascot art, makes me happy. This month I updated my art style by changing the brush I used.

October

I joined Vampichi, the species reminded me of keychain rua, the first species I joined. I also made the decision to ‘quit’ commissions. I don’t want to be relying on comms in the long run. October I also picked up my diary back and started journalling again. 

November

You know what happened.. I blogged again! I don’t think I quit anything in November, if anything, I created my best art in November (the blog’s banner which contained most of my mascot ocs)

December

I was pretty bummed that I didn’t won the vgen challenge and I think I want to stop joining them. This month though, I quit saying yes just to keep the peace or be nice. This month I reopened my comms, and my main reason was to ‘force’ myself to draw. So I was using my comms to cope. I was honestly super proud of this month’s commission work that I wanted to gush about them in one whole blog post.. but alas my time is running out, 2026 is coming.

But let me share some of my commission works that I did in December <3

Custom Design and Omakase Headshot (Personal Use) for DetachedBeauty on Vgen.
This was a custom inquiry and I’m super in love with how she came out!

Custom Mascot Design (Vtuber) for Sami on Vgen.
Another Vtuber Mascot comms I did this year!
I’m always so excited to design a cute companion for our vtubers <3

Custom Mascot Design (Somnivores 18+ ARPG) for TigerAngelz on Vgen.
This is the second time I’m working for Tigerangelz this year and everytime I’m in love with the mood board and concept they provided in the proposal! 

Other than comms, I also designed an outfit pack for premade designs/ already made ocs. I have thought about this before, but I genuinely think there are already so so so many ocs out there and I mean, if we enjoy playing dress up in real life, why don’t we give our ocs new fits too? If you’re interested, clicking the image will catapult you directly to the listing!

You can freely change the colors and combinations to better suit your oc!

The base costs $12 and can be used for multiple ocs that you own.
You only need to buy once!

All in all, 2025 is the year I finally quit and cut all things that are no longer aligned with me.. on a soul level. This allows me to make room for new things, I began to write again, my room renovation project finally has some progress, and I started reading books again. Just this year, I finished 17 books total and I plan on reading more in 2026. I released my bases, I met new people through workshops, learned new skills, and overall, I’m happy with how things are progressing. 

and fun fact, in December I began hulahooping and managed to shed 6 cms off of my waistline! I can even hold the SOFT WEIGHTED hoop on my waist for almost an hour. 

Anyways, I have to go! See you in 2026!!

XOXO

Jasmine

Birthday Blues: Bye Bye November

Immediately after I turned 29, I got sick. On 21st I went to the Vihara in early morning, did my prayer and did the coin toss thing. I asked the universe if whether what I’m about to do (stop taking commissions completely) or what I’m planning on doing (making merchs of my original characters, write and publish my own works) is right. And the fortune slip I got was just a reiteration of something I already know deep down. (Yes I’m on the right path but I need to stop thinking about money)

It was fine, BUT my aunt and one of the head help in my house pointed out that the skirt I was wearing has holes in it and from then on everything spiralled down. One of my aunt’s staff has apparently burned 2 visible holes at the hem of my nylon skirt and there’s no way of repairing it unless I cut the seams open and completely remake and repurpose the damaged bits. The skirt was a favorite find, I bought it at a local boutique that sells curated local brands. I tried looking the skirt up again but it was no longer sold.

I was angry, mostly because the one responsible didn’t come forth and did not even apologize when confronted. So I decided to go out and spend the day with my sister, grabbed an online taxi, I decided to try out one of my hometown’s famously affordable hair salon. The last time I had my hair cut was last February and my layers have all grown out and I desperately needed a trim. Later I came to regret this decision. I hated the receptionist, and though my stylist was kind, he didn’t gave me what I wanted and after a wash at home, my hair looks like shit. (I believe a good haircut means the hair shape stay good even at home. I have a shoulder length wavy hair, the stylist thinned the end too much that it looked ugly and unshapely)

After hair dresser, we had the driver drove us to one of my favorite Hikiniku Restaurant and we had our usual plus Salmon Carpaccio. It was delicious and was probably one of the thing that went well that day. We got home around 14.00 and spend our remaining days reading/drawing. 

Everything was okay until after dinner. I literally puked everything. I was already feeling nauseous so I only had oats and chia seed. I was still feeling bad because of the skirt and actually the day before, my father made a fuss about how blowing candle is against Chinese Culture— something he picked up from a tiktok video idk— and so I didn’t have my candle but I was upset because why can’t I have things my way? I wasn’t asking for much yk. I just wanted to blow the damn candle and TBH make a wish.

I felt like everything was being thrown at me on purpose. Did I mention that I also have an NPD mom? She called midnight, after wishing me a HBD, she immediately asked when will we go back to the capital, and proceeded to make remarks that just further shown her narcissistic traits. Perfect.

TLDR, I got sick and my body refused to eat anything but bananas, oats and some herbal ginger drinks for the next 2 days.I got a slight fever too it was hellish. Though on 24th, I feel signifficantly better. I decided to take a break from drawing until yesterday (29th) though and spent the day reading book and playing stardew.

Closing the month, I actually feel thankful for the sickness and the birthday mishaps. I feel like it was the universe’s way to tell me to reset. My body was given a reset because I lost 3 kgs in 3 days (though I have since gained them back). I was also allowed to slow down with my art. Before the day, I ambitiously designed 3 new characters and is already planning on another one. But the sick days forced me to stop. I had told myself to prioritise personal art project over ARPGs or closed species activities as they are meant only for casual fun but I was leaning into old patterns a little and was forced to stop.

Personally now I feel rejuvenated with new goal and to dos. I’m also happy that my room renovation project has resumed. My soul and mind is fed after I finished reading Jane Austen’s Manfield Park, now moving on to M.L. Rio’s If We Were Villains. I also had sushi with my sister and my dad yesterday.

I hope December is going to be gentler!

PS: Sorry! No new art! As stated above I’ve been reading and playing stardew. I HAVE been drawing but I try not to draw for content/clout/money so I have been taking my sweet sweet time.. Please be content with a pic of meat and ice cream :”)

XX Jasmine